It's time to bare my soul.

I don't really know why I'm crying. It almost feels like it's not fair. Like I have no one around me that really loves me and I have no talents to make me better than anyone at anything. It all just hit me now, out of no where. I just want to fit into this place that's not meant for me. I'm in high school, a virgin and definitely not a musician there is nothing I can offer these people. I need give up trying to be like them and go back to being plain old me. The loner that has the gorgeous best friend that will never get a boyfriend and doesn't know what to do with her life. After tomorrow I think I need a day to myself maybe just to learn to be able to be by myself without being bored out of my mind like I used to be able to do. On the bright side I am feeling more confident about my body although I do still think I'm fat and ugly at least my skin's getting better. Doesn't matter what anyone else say I still won't believe so who cares. I want to go back to school just to get it over with but I'm scared for this year who knows where it will go. I don't know what else to say I wish I was good with words and had a talent, was someone special but I'm not.